Monday, October 25, 2010

I love October!!! November, however...

October is my favorite month - hockey and basketball are underway, football is almost halfway through, the world series has begun and Kelsey's fall league softball games are played in beautiful weather with the gorgeous fall colors surrounding our mountains! It is also breast cancer awareness month. I personally am getting a little sick of the color pink this month but am thrilled that cancer awareness is everywhere.

A couple of weeks ago, a few of the ladies from our church came over to our house bearing a gift - they had sewn a beautiful pink and black quilt, with quotes of inspiration on various squares throughout the front of the quilt. They asked if I would please give it to someone they thought would benefit from the comfort it could offer, made with love. I happily accepted it knowing how much comfort our friend Lisa found in the prayer blanket made by Nick's aunt and the prayer blanket and quilt Nick received, also from his aunt and from family friends.

Today we were inspired to meet a new friend, Joann, who is also undergoing treatment at Huntsman. Our nurse, Katie, introduced us and as we handed Joann the quilt, tears streamed in surprise and thankfulness. I admitted I had nothing to do with making the quilt, I can barely sew on a button - I was just the happy messenger. It was a good day for all of us.

Nick, meanwhile, went through two types of chemo all of last week - one in pill form, the other by iv in the outpatient clinic. This week he is only one one - the iv - again daily through Friday. He seems to be doing very well, just fatigued. Next week on Nov 3rd, he will have a ct scan of his abdomen, mri of his head and neck and finish with a chest x-ray. The following week on Nov 10th, we will meet with Dr. Andtabacka to discuss the results and all the details of the surgery in Boston (he is the Huntsman surgeon coordinating with the other surgeon at UMass). We have a lot of questions.

On Monday, Nov 15th, Nick will have a laproscopy to see what an actual camera can pick up in that tummy of his... if the cancer hasn't gone crazy, we will head to Boston the next day or so. We should have an idea when we have the results from Nov 3rd so we'll have a little time to make some tentative travel arrangements.

This is why I'm not too crazy about November this year. The good thing is that Nick gets to take a break from chemo for awhile. Hopefully, we hope to be back home before Thanksgiving, take off to Newport Beach for some much needed r & r the week after and then Nick has plans to go to Vegas the first week in December for the national rodeo finals.

That's it for now! Thank you all for the love and prayers!

Lori

Monday, October 18, 2010

In the streets of Philadelphia

Nick here...

So as many of you know... I like to have things to look forward to after every round of chemo to help me stay positive and remind myself why I keep fighting cancer. Its because of the wonderful moments in life that that put a smile on your face.... at least thats what it is for me.

Anyways, during my previous round of chemo I realized that I didn't have anything planned for my good week which was this past week. I soon started to look up the Pittsburgh Penguins game schedule online and saw that they were playing the Philadelphia Flyers on the 16th, and I knew that my Mom and Lee have some connections out in Philadelphia. One is Michael Rouse and he has always been extremely nice to my family and I, as well as help out with Wacky Warriors when we came out to Philly last year and ran the Broad St Run. The other is Matt Rosenberg, who is also a great guy and friend of Lee's.

Soon after planting the seed in their heads that I wanted to go out and see my favorite professional sports team play out in Philly, I heard from a close friend of mine that they had arranged for a chance to ride a BULL if I still wanted to do it (it is something I have wanted to do for a while). I told them I sure did and wanted them to do it as well (4 of them). Unfortunately those plans fell through at the last minute, but it seems this was a good thing because my platelets were pretty low (I found this out the day after the scheduled bull ride).

Even though the bull ride didn't happen, my family and I did make it out to Philly to see the game. Lee, Mom, Kelsey, Carly and I all flew out Thursday night excited to see a good game of pro hockey on Saturday night. Matt made hotel arrangements and also provided us with tickets to the hockey game - CLUB SUITE!

Tour bus - notice Carly & Nick in the background...

In front of the Ben Franklin Museum Kelsey & Nick in a cockpit
We spent Friday doing bus tours and seeing the city which is full of history just like Boston. We then finished off the day at dinner with Michael. Did I say he is a great guy? We then woke up Saturday and were off to visit the Benjamin Franklin Museum, but not before we had a Philly Cheesesteak. The museum had a flight simulator, which I had to do. Carly decided to be my co-pilot which she found to be a little more than she expected. Everyone outside the simulator could here Carly's screams and my laughs but it was all smiles when the doors opened back up. People were laughing when we came out..... it was great.

Before...

And after...We then took off for the hockey game........ which was amazing. Why, you may ask? Well let me tell you:

1. The Penguins won 5-1
2. My favorite player had 3 pts (2 goals 1 assist)
3. I got to go in the Flyers locker room after the game. Now about #3..... I found out the night before from Michael that I would get to go in the locker room after the game. So I made sure I didn't wear Penguins clothing to the game. Anyways, just before the end of the game, the PR guy (Zack) for the Flyers grabbed us and took us to the locker room. My sisters and Mom never made it in till after the players had left due to a good chance of nudity... HA. However Lee and I did go and it was very easy to see the loss in all the players faces. They weren't happy at all. I was able to witness how the post game interviews work with all the press and journalists with the players. Chris Pronger (a soon to be Hall of Famer) had his interview last because he had to ice his knees. I was told that I would get to meet him, but expected it would happen after the interview. Oh no.... not with Pronger.

Pronger: He simply told the reporters to "MOVE" as he walked over to me and shook my hand. At 6'6" and 220 lbs, he towered over me. I honestly don't remember the words he said to me.... probably due to his intimidation factor (he is also known as one of the most "aggressive" players in the league) but he was a super nice guy and even took a couple pictures with me before talking to the press, which he called "vultures". He then waved and said "good luck" and was off to ice his knees some more I assume. Soon after, I took pictures with another player on the Flyers due to his ironic name.... Kimmo (Chemo) Timonen. He was a nice guy, too, but didn't say much. It was a great experience and I definitely won't forget it.... especially Pronger. Thank you, Lee, Michael & Matt for making this happen!

Hope you like the pictures!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

A few things

Last Tuesday, we received an email from our nurse, Katie, saying they received confirmation the surgeon in Boston has agreed to take Nick and perform surgery - the one where she will open up his tummy and apply chemo directly to his abdomen. Katie wanted to know if she could set up an appointment with the surgeon at Huntsman who is coordinating the surgery with the surgeon in Boston. He would explain all the details. But first, Nick would have to have a laproscopy, where they place a camera right in his tummy to take a peek at exactly what is in there. They would want to do that once he has completed his next upcoming round of chemo (two week treatment) starting on the 18th. This was much for us to take in. I forwarded on to Nick so he could decide if he wanted to go further (I, at least, wanted to get the details first before making a decision). Nick declined to discuss it, saying he'll think about it later.

By Thursday, we were up at Huntsman getting labs done. He asked to talk to Katie. I reminded him he doesn't have to do any treatment/surgery, especially when this is all experimental anyway. We told Katie we thought surgery was only an option if the chemo wasn't working, but she explained it was an option they were all waiting for - a very hopeful and preferred treatment. She also explained Nick will have to have a laproscopy, regardless if he has surgrey or not, probably another CT scan, too. Nick thought about it and said, "Well, I really like Boston..." so she'll go ahead and get some appointments set up so we can get all the information on the table and see if it is something he wants to pursue. If he decides to go with it, he could have surgery next month.

On Friday, Katie called to let know his white cell counts were at zero again, to which he promptly packed his bags, took off to his dads for the night and then drove to Wyoming to visit his best friend, Rob, and Rob's family. Well, just know where the closest hospital is and take a thermometer, I advise. Rob has a new baby, Paxton Nicholas, who is about 6 months old, bursting with cuteness. Rob also took Nick fishing and yes, after 21 years, Nick finally caught his first fish on his very own merit. It was a proud, manly moment.


Yesterday, Nick and I drove to go get labs done again and he played me his new theme song, by Rebelution - "Bright Side" (you can listen if you go to: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zrNzKEMD2Zc). Here are the lyrics...

Don’t trip you know I’m always by your side
You'll be fine for the ride just be calm
Take a breath and don't cry, look on the bright side

Rise up now make an impact
Now get your bags packed
Think about your life, the thrill
Don't you cry look on the bright side of life

Somebody told me everything is alright
That life's too short to be afraid
Which is leading up to what I want to say
Living should be giving in a way
Contemplating every single day
And learning so we educate and be positive, it is what it is
Come and set examples for the kids
I don't want to scare you no I don't
It's time you be a role model so open up

Don’t trip you know I’m always by your side
You'll be fine for the ride just be calm
Take a breath and don't cry, look on the bright side

Rise up now make an impact
Now get your bags packed
Think about your life, the thrill
Don't you cry look on the bright side

Be kind and keep a smile
Keep your head up and try to find a friend or a child
And encourage their life, look on the bright side

Rise up now make an impact
Now get your bags packed
Think about your life, the thrill
Don't you cry look on the bright side of life


Well done, Nick. Our family takes off on Thursday to Philadelphia to see the Flyers vs. Penguins game. We are all excited for the trip! We get home on Sunday and Nick will be back at Huntsman on Monday for chemo. Til then, we'll all look on the bright side of life!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Another Round Done!

The fishing and steer roping Nick experienced prior to last week's chemo helped him sail through feeling pretty good. Nick had two different chemos every day for 5 days last week; in the outpatient clinic from 8:00 to 12:00 daily. He had a lot of company - his fairy godmothers, Dean, Uncle Bill and Andrew. The fairy godmothers were in fine form, wearing stove top hats with smiley faces on them, matching Nick's pj bottoms. It is so cute to watch everyone in the outpatient clinic - patients, nurses, caregivers - all can't help but smile, too. The fairy godmothers really are magical.Nick felt good enough to go watch his buddies play on the Univ of Utah hockey team both Friday and Saturday night,earning two wins!

Nick invited us to watch a documentary on ESPN last night - about an amazing young man named Terry Fox, who ran across Canada to raise money for cancer. It was inspiring and emotional for us. Terry's pace was a marathon a day - all while running on one healthy leg and one prosthesis, losing his other leg to cancer. Terry pressed on as he knew it wasn't about him, it was about all of the young ones with cancer. His vision carried him through 3,300 miles in 143 days; his foundation has raised over $500 million.

I am always in awe when we have the courage to step outside our own situation and serve, how powerful our impact becomes, just as God promised. Nick has also been motivated to serve and his impact is starting to be felt. At Kelsey's softball game on Saturday, the commissioner of the ASA for our district saw me and said, "You are creating some problems for me." Why? "Because you don't have just a small tournament with a few teams getting together for charity anymore. You hosted a full-on tournament with a great reputation that should be on our calendar every year and we won't be able to waive the sanctioning fees anymore." I grinned from ear to ear - "Jerry, that is a terrific problem!!!!!"

On a more serious note, I should also take a moment to clarify a couple of things. First of all, we don't discuss prognosis because Nick hasn't initiated it. This isn't our question to ask, this is Nick's alone, although we are all going through this together. He has never been one to dwell on statistics and focuses only on living. He has weathered some interesting comments made to him about his prognosis and it made him uncomfortable. He said, "Mom, I know what the deal is, but I'm in for the fight and plan on being around for a long time." I'm with him 100%! I told him that the time he has here on earth is ONLY between him and God, we are just here to support his journey, to pray, to learn, to share, to love. There is tremendous power in living in the present. I have observed many, many children and young adults go through their battle with cancer and they ALL are in the here-and-now - let's go play! Their attitudes and perspectives are so different than adults, as it should be.

Secondly, we appreciate the enormous amount of suggestions for alternative treatments. We also respect Nick's opinion and allow him to discern what sounds right intuitively. There are so many treatments, both mainstream and complimentary, that are showing amazing promise. We all wish these new studies would HURRY! I personally acknowledge Nick's own therapy - giving back, embracing a grateful and positive attitude and always having something to look forward to...

Speaking of, we are now booked to go to Philly next Thursday through Sunday so we can enjoy the Penguins vs. Flyers game. We know Nick will be feeling good and it'll be something we'll all enjoy before he begins chemo again on the 18th.

With humble gratitude,

Lori

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

My home away from home

So after the fishing trip at Strawberry Reservoir, I felt I hadn't quite had enough fun yet before my next round started (it started yesterday) so my Dad and I headed down to Moab. My home away from home.
It was great to see Colin again and get back into my wranglers and boots. The weather was descent and we didn't hesitate to begin the first day with some scenic jeeping to "Top of the World". The jeeping took a lot more out of me than I thought it would so after we got back it was definitely nap time. After a couple of hours of sleep it was off to the corrals to catch up on my team roping skills. We roped two days in a row and I loved every moment of it. I ended the second day of roping with the best roping sequence I have ever done. I roped the head of the steer and then turned him so that Colin could heel both of the hind feet, and he did just that. If we would have done that in a rodeo we would have gotten a score. Not a great score but a score non the less. I have never done that before, and neither did anyone else in those two days of roping. It also began to rain really hard just after we did that and I felt like it was God's way of saying.... "Nick I think you should end on that one." So we did. Ha
So I left Moab grateful to have had a weekend full of cowboyin', nappin', jeepin', eatin', and healin'.

Here are some good pics from the weekend:






Monday, September 20, 2010

A weekend of fishin'

Nick here...

So, as most of you may know.... I started up the chemo grind yet again a couple weeks ago. As always, I felt pretty drained for the past week or so and have spent a lot of time on the couch catching up on my tv shows and not eating as much as I should be. Fortunately I have an awesome support system that likes to get me up and going again. My "fairy godmother", Jennie, and her husband Dean arranged a fishing trip at Strawberry Reservoir this past weekend with a bunch of friends: Colin, Monica, Howard, Doug, and even Mateo and Buttons (First Descents participants) who drove out from Denver.

The weekend began with Lee and I driving out to the lake to meet everyone. We didn't hesitate to begin fishing late that afternoon even though Mateo and Buttons had not arrived yet. Unfortunately, I did not catch anything that night..... actually I didn't catch anything that weekend. Dean did let me reel in fish he hooked on Saturday night so that was cool. I guess I was not cut out to be a fisherman.... I will stick to ropin' steers in Moab.
What I did get out of the fishing trip though was some good laughs at dinner and regained stamina and appetite that I needed. Mateo and Buttons also brought a couple gifts that I did not expect..... One being some awesome sunglasses (I love sunglasses) and a certificate to get my Kayaking Instruction Certification, which would be awesome to do next spring because then I could get paid to do the thing I love.... KAYAK. So lastly I want to thank Lee, Jennie and Dean for getting me off the couch to come experience and awesome weekend fishing, surrounded by the people I love. Can't do much better than that.

I am now off to Moab with my Dad to do some more healing by enjoying good company and spectacular scenery. Oh.... and rope some steers!

With love,
(Nickname) Raitt

Doing some rolls - a bit harder when fatigued... gotta little help from my friends.

PS from Mom: we buzzed his head last night - the calico kitten look for hair is now gone.Nick will be getting his port put in this Friday and chemo starts again on Monday, the 27th, for five days, outpatient, 2 chemo combo - assuming he comes back from Moab :)

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

3rd Annual Charity Softball Tournament - Update

While I'm gathering all the pictures from various photographers, I thought I'd go ahead and post about the event now. Friday afternoon started off with just one hiccup, but once we worked through it (I dried my eyes and picked up my chin), the pool games were on at both Valley and Cottonwood softball complexes by 4:00 p.m. We all headed over to Cottonwood after 7:00 p.m. to begin the skills contest! This is our favorite because the music is blasting and all the players get their groove on. The 10 year-olds are the cutest because it is their first time learning how to participate and their enthusiasm is off the charts. Just look at this little one's intensity!
Spirit ribbons were provided to all the teams to represent support for Nick; all the teams and their parents were encouraged to wear them. One team in particular, the Rebels, tied the ribbons to their jerseys, which were worn backwards, topped off with their hats also on backwards to show they were WACKY! The UC Strikers painted their hair bright florescent colors, also promoting the WACKY theme. Note both these teams are 10u - too cute.

We were priveleged to have Shelby Abeyta join Nick in handing out the prizes. Shelby is also a cancer survivor and a softball player, as well. Many of the players know Shelby and there were lots of hugs and congratulations to see her look so good! The chaos was paramount but the excitement uncontained. Nick and Carly were able to have their slow-pitch face-off game. Carly had hoped to stack her team with her friends from the SLCC softball team (their coach caught wind of it and said "No way!") so Carly had to scramble to make a team. She didn't have much fun at first, striking out her first 4 times at bat. The umpire of the game was kind and said to her as she dragged her bat behind her, walking to the plate, "Aw, c'mon kid, 8th time is a charm! Get in there and hit it!" So she promptly hit a triple, redeemed herself as a ball player and gave props to the ump as she rounded 2nd base. Her team still got creamed but the smiles never left their faces - well except Carly when she was up to bat again.Saturday morning teams continued to play, eventually ending up back at Cottonwood to play the championship games. We were thrilled to have Corey & Lisa Nielsen from First Descents join us, driving from Colorado to be with Nick, who came to watch the final games later that evening. Nick's aunt Chris & uncle Stan also flew over from California and his grandparents flew in from Washington to participate in all the fun.

Two championship games went into extra games; fortunately, the weather was incredibly perfect and the evening was quite nice. In the 16u bracket, Crush took first and Lady Freakz took second; 12u bracket, Hot Shotz took first and Surge took second; 10u bracket, UC Strikers took first and Surge took second.

Many people shared with us their own stories of how cancer has invaded their lives. Many admired Nick's perseverence to be at the tournament when he wasn't feeling very well, but insisted on handing out the tropies. Many shed tears but everyone had a great time for a great cause. I'd like to share one of several emails I received:

"Dear Lori,

I want to thank-you and your son for putting on such a great softball tournament this last weekend. My daughter plays for The Lady Freakz and she was honored when your son handed over the trophy for winning 2nd place for the16U. At first, she was upset for not winning 1st place and then your son put life in prospective – Every team that played and raised money for the WACKY tournament did win 1st place.

I pray that your son gets well soon.

Thanks again!
Jennifer Beavers"

This tournament would not have taken place without an extraordinary team of supporters. I would like to thank the following:

Liza Goodman, SL County Parks & Rec - for donating the parks and staff (especially her field crew chief, Shannon, who did a phenomenal job)
Bridgette Bertagnolli - for the design and ordering of the pj bottoms and slogan tee shirts and miscellaneous items donated for prizes
MSG Brad Wilkinson - for donating items from the National Guard
First Descents - for sending amazing reps to support the tournament and providing miscellenous FD materials
CureSearch - for sending Denise Bayles over to support the tournament
Jennifer Stahle - for input during our planning meetings and ordering the WACKY pins
Matt Thornley - for input during our planning meetings and donating items
Joyce Stacey - for the tee shirts given to the teams particpating this year
Brandon Newby - for the design of the tee shirts
Brian Clark, Ringor Sports - for providing the skills contest prizes
Devon Anderson - for organizing the volunteer assignments at Cottonwood
All the volunteers at Cottonwood, especially the entire Anderson family, for all their hard work
Ralph Anderson (no relation) - for organizing the umpires, who ALL donated games to the cause
Travis Sutherland - for preparing the brackets
Jerry Coleman - for waiving the sanctioning fees and providing the softballs
Tanya & Rae Gall (and Jayden) - for donating items to the snack cart, providing a canopy and volunteering for the concessions
Todd Raitt, Carly Raitt, Leigh Corbin and Whitney - for volunteering
Jenn Reynolds - for providing the spirit ribbons and volunteering as a scorekeeper
Jennie Magnesen, Denise Cummins, Jerry Gill, John & Ginger Balcom - for being floater volunteers wherever needed throughout the entire tournament (which was everywhere and often)
Ty, Bo & Andrew - for volunteering as scorekeepers
Chris & Parker Hall, Terri Thompson and Alane Macrum - for volunteering
Wes White & Ren Parkin - for organizing and running the skills contest
Nannette White & Craig Cummings - for photography
Jon McGowan - for providing the music
Chris & Stan Ulvin - for registering a "Team of Angels" and the Angels Rally Monkey

For all the players and coaches who came to fields with strong hearts, competitive spirits and unwaivering positive attitudes to make a difference in the lives of those affected by cancer.

And a special thank you to Lee, my husband, for encouraging me to keep going, not to quit and the amazing help he had in the overall operations at Cottonwood. This tournament would truly not have happened without him.

Blessings to all of those that participated and demonstrated patience as a softball mom tried to put together a tournament that would be fun, while raising money and awareness for childhood cancer. Your love and support for Nick has been overwhelming and quite humbling. We hope to see you again next year. Pledges are being collected now through the end of September and I will keep the blog updated with progress.

With extreme gratitude,

Lori Brower